Educating oneself during a pandemic is a battle against procrastination, existential dread and the hyperreality of the void.

 

 

Late mornings, late nights. Bright screens showing unfavourable concepts. Low motivation levels barely pushing you through the day. This is the reality of education through a fatal pandemic.

The outdoors a post-apocalyptic dream void of life. Living for each day at 1 pm for the announcement. Never wanting anything other than the everyday boredom to be interrupted by something, anything. These stupid zoom calls offering you no hiatus in the everyday routine. Wake up. Scroll on phone. Realise it’s 12 pm. Catch up on work. Feel stressed but do nothing about it. Return to bed. Contemplate life. Stress about our future. Out of bed. Eat something. Keep eating. Stressing. Thinking.

Let us procrastinate just a few days longer. Maybe we will never return. Maybe I’ll be stuck in my room for the rest of my life. If this pandemic reaches me, would I die? Those thoughts causing anxiety making you shrink. Shrink back into bed. The mental illness coming back up, possessing your body like a demon, eager for power to take over your soul. Let this demon control you, trap you in your own mind, make you experience these thoughts that keep you on edge. How can you get out of this cycle?

 


This article is part of our student voices writing competition, presented by Education Perfect.

You can vote for Charlotte’s piece here: https://epforschool.com/en/register-for-student-voices-writing-competition/


 

This overwhelming boredom has begun to make you hallucinate those zombies outside in the apocalyptic universe. You have so much to do, but the dwindling motivation appears to have gone on vacation where it is currently enjoying a pina colada in Hawai’i.

You wonder about joining it before realising that overseas travel isn’t an option. Oh dear, wherever will Annie go this year? Bet she’s complaining her head off about not being able to go to Italy for the 19th time this year. Oh, woe is me. Back to work. Maths, derivatives. Hm no thanks, your house your rules. No maths under your roof thank you. What else, economics? Who even cares? Everyone knows our economy is falling exponentially. Not needed, next. English? Why would you write about stuff when there’s nothing going on anyway? Boring, no thank you. Wow half of your subjects gone, ok, let’s go get a snack. Big questions, why don’t we have any good food. Oh shit, you must have eaten it all. That glowup you promised yourself during quarantine isn’t going so well. 

 

Wow, back here at home again, maybe this time you should count all the lines of the grains of wood on the dining room table. Maybe you should rewatch that one Netflix series again. Oh, your physics exam is due? What topic was that again? Electronics? Well oops, at least it’s all online. You’re definitely not cheating. Let us all rejoice in Google’s presence.

 

First time out in a week. The roads have never been so deserted. Driving around like the last person on earth. This one-off outing would have once been bothersome but now is a treat you’ve been thrilled for. A line cascades out of the square building, people in masks, looking at you with dreary eyes. These eyes are the eyes that haven’t had sleep for days, and don’t understand why.

These eyes glare at you, with a slight bit of eagerness. These people are the first humans you have seen outside of your community in what seems like years. Stand and wait. Wait for movement. A tedious task somehow the most exciting event of the week. Wait. Step forward. Wait. Hand sanitise and enter. Some new surroundings finally can fill you with excitement, returning a little bit of motivation. What food could you make? Short outing already over. Home time. Back to repetition. Back to the dullness, blandness. See this place in another week, already counting down the minutes.

Wow, back here at home again, maybe this time you should count all the lines of the grains of wood on the dining room table. Maybe you should rewatch that one Netflix series again. Oh, your physics exam is due? What topic was that again? Electronics? Well oops, at least it’s all online. You’re definitely not cheating. Let us all rejoice in Google’s presence. Bow down to the all-powerful search engine saving my education.

Wonder what you’ll do tomorrow, may even go for a walk, let’s put a timer on your phone to count down. Only 22 hours and 14 minutes to go. Here’s some more spare time to think about your birthday party in seven months. Maybe you should facetime Caitlin. Don’t know what you’d say though, let’s just keep thinking about when you were nine and accidentally peed yourself in class. Yeah, that made you feel so much worse. Thanks, brain. What else, should you run around the back yard for twenty minutes and then sit and wonder what you’re doing with your life?

Good idea. See you later.

 


This article is part of our student voices writing competition, presented by Education Perfect.

You can vote for Charlotte’s piece here: https://epforschool.com/en/register-for-student-voices-writing-competition/


 

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